Attached

Heart strings come in all different shapes sizes

and are all developed in different ways

Many are small, thin, and growing

Others are old, thick, and deeply rooted

Some are more easily broken because they're frail

or because they've been severed before--

and sometimes they take time and work to seperate

But the most interesting type are ones you didn't even realize existed

until you felt the pain of them breaking.

GO SEE IT!

Best movie of 2009-- I cried.

Beck.Bo.Brazil

So good news! Sister Beck came to "college town" friday night.. and it was SO good! For those that might not know Sister Julie B. Beck is the General Relief Society President for the church-- she is amazing! So she told us that her topic would simply be answering questions from the audience. I HATE it when they say that because I always feel like we end up hearing stupid irrelevant questions like "What is the daily schedule like for a member of the Relief Society Presidency?" BOO! I want to be spiritually fed, not informed of the time she eats and brushes her teeth.. But OH was I wrong! Even though some of the questions seemed inapplicable to me she always pulled doctrinal concepts and things that EVERYONE could apply in their lives... it was amazing. A couple highlights:

• "Women's leadership role is that of influence."
• "If you are too tired to hear the spirit then you become a target for the adversary.. You'll begin to doubt and fear."
• (when speaking about the visiting teaching)- "A phone call can't: see a tear, give a hug, or see an empty shelf"
• "Don't ever underestimate the power of influence."
• (when asked about Family Home Evening and family scripture study) "Consistency is better than perfection."
• "AS WOMEN WE HAVE BEEN GIVEN THE RESPONSIBILITY OF HALF OF THE PLAN-- IT CANNOT BE DELEGATED."

She is one amazing person.. 

Saturday afternoon I headed to HomeTown... After I started the first load of laundry I headed over to Bo's. While I was driving over I thought who do I hug first? My best friend that I haven't seen in a month or my friend I haven't seen in 2 years?? ha ha But the second I walked into the house Kla came running to give me a hug :D I can't even express how grateful I am for her! She is SUCH a good friend to me! Then after I hugged her I gave Bo a big hug as well-- It was SO good to see him. His voice was like a crazy blast from the past! Samson came over later and it was just a good little rendezvous! 

Sunday was an interesting day... It was the first time I had seen Brazil since the Mayday concert.. which was like 3 days after the break-up so it'd been a while and I was terrified because I had this vision of seeing him and completely crumbling into a sobbing mess.. no good! I had SO many worries- Should I talk to him? Should I give him a hug? Should I just leave right after so that I don't make a fool of myself? Does his family hate me? How should I act around everyone? WHAT DO I DO? I don't think I've ever prayed so hard throughout a sacrament meeting in my life! I made eye contact with Bo on the stand & the look on his face was like "holy crap! I can sense the tension from here" ha ha-- He gave a great talk tho and it calmed me down a lot-- and after the meeting I took a deep breath and stood to face it all. 

As I walked through the aisle it was just a sea of faces I'd known forever. The last time I'd seen most of them was at Brazil's homecoming.. except this time I had to face it without him by my side. I gave a lot of hugs, but my mind continued to race with questions.. Had he moved on completely? Was it going to be awkward? What were we going to talk about? Would he even talk to me?  But my thoughts were interrupted by a tap from behind me and I turned to see the smiling face of Brazil's youngest sister. She gave me a big hug and comforted me in a way I don't think she'll ever realize. The next person I met as I walked into the foyer was Brazil's dad.. another comforting hug.. I could do this. 

Bo was the next hug and then after a quick chat I headed for Brazil. I was about 3 feet from him when, at the sight of me, he opened his arms and the tension was broken. It felt so good to relax a little for the first time in hours. We chatted for a couple minutes-- just quick updates about life... It was good. He doesn't hate me :)

We all headed to the Bo's luncheon and as I walked to my car, Samson gave me props for keeping class and composure {thank you for your support. You're the best!} The luncheon was SO fun. I finally had the chance to give the Head Nurse a hug and since the ice had been broken on all levels- I could finally enjoy myself. Brazil and I were able to joke around which I loved because it keeps alive the hope that after this is all over we can still maintain our friendship.  As we ate I found myself staring down the table at all of the people I was currently surrounded by.. Kla, Bo, Pete (friend that recently returned from his mission), Brazil, Samson, and Dalton... We were all back together! I realized how grateful I was for the amazing people that the Lord had surrounded me with throughout the most crucial years of my life. This year I'm most grateful for friends. <3

What I won't be doing tomorrow

Due to the current state of women around the globe, I feel the need to clear my name.

Tomorrow I will not be joining the throngs of women going to see New Moon.

Will I see it ever?... probably, but not if I have to pay for it..
Do I hate you if love the series? Of course not!
But do I sometimes poke jokes at you? .. Maybe ;)
Have I read the saga? Yes
Did I enjoy it? .... Yes
Do I wish to see Jacob with his shirt off? Not particularly
So does that mean I'm on "Team Edward"? ... No

Here's my case. I'm a hopeless romantic, so I read Twilight... I liked it! It's a good story! Is Edward much hotter in my head than in the movies.. of course.. but I can't handle the intensity of the crazed women that would leave their husbands for Edward if he was real (I wish that was an exaggeration!). I feel bad even supporting something something that make women think these crazy things!

Direct Quote from a 19 year old girl that just barely came up to me 2 seconds ago talking about Twilight:

"I'm obsessed and now have unrealistic expectations about my future relationships"

... point proven

I love reading and I'm glad that this whole series got a lot of girls and women into reading... reading is FABULOUS! But I've read plenty of good love stories that are equally as good--

Conclusion: The Twilight series is a good story, but there are other good stories out there! Keep reading don't just read Twilight, become obsessed, and then re-read the series again and again. Explore other books! Otherwise you might be the kind of twilighter I make fun of--

PS: Bo gets home today.. :) I am jealous of Kayla! That was such a fun time and I hope her "moment" is everything she ever dreamed it would be. Love you Girl!

Isn't it strange how you can think that you've hit rock bottom, but-- just as the thought "Nowhere to go but up" crosses your mind-- the trap door opens beneath you...

Superstitions

Isn't it funny how superstitious we are? Maybe I should just speak for myself, but whenever I say something like "I've never had a cold sore" someone always says.."Knock on wood!" Why? Why do we do these weird things like knock on wood? I know that the chances of me getting a cold sore just because I said that isn't truly realistic, but I STILL don't want to risk it, so I end up looking all around me for a piece of wood! DUMB!

All day long I thought about what to wish for today.. stupid I know, but randomly I would think what should my wish be? and I couldn't think of one. I've wished the same exact wish for every shooting star, 11:11, birthday, etc. for the past couple years, and I won't lie as late that wish will probably never come true-- but even though that wish didn't come true doesn't mean that I'm willing let the chance go by to make a wish!

{funny side note: the only time my wish has varied in about the last 3 years was right after the Stewy situation and I was so bitter about everything that I wished on a shooting star that what goes around would come around for him.. ha ha}

So tonight I was studying for history and I look up and it's 11:11 and I panicked! What do I wish for? and then I randomly thought it and wished it.

Wishes are interesting. When I was a kid I would wish for trillion dollars or something like that, but as I get older I've realized that my wishes are more like desires. I always wish for the desire of my heart [and that night I wanted Stewy to get what's coming ;)] I dunno. If you had a genie in front of you right now that could grant one wish what would it be? and no cop out's by saying "I want to go to the Celestial Kingdom" That's NOT a bad wish, but that's a wish that everyone should have. Think of a wish that might be more unique to you.

I don't know what I'm trying to get at really, but it's just funny how the wishes that you make on a shooting star might say something about you...

Or maybe I think too much and I'm really just a rambling nut case!

DON'T FORGET!

Make two extra special wishes tomorrow!

11/11 - 11:11

Lately

Well lately life has been pretty so-so... not too much going on in my life, but this weekend was pretty eventful!

I went to the Regina Spektor concert this weekend with Katie and Sam.. I was so excited for them to officially meet because they never have and I knew they would get along great because if nothing else they both dress amazingly and they could talk about fashion if nothing else, but anywho... we went to Regina and I don't want to say too much about it except that she is crazy~~~ and funny! She sang a couple songs that aren't on any of her cd's (for obvious reasons ;) but she also sang all her good songs! As you might've noticed I put a playlist on my blog dedicated to Miss Regina and I <3 her. My favorite song is "Eet". Mostly because I love the piano-- she had a piano on stage and she was either playing the piano, the guitar, or singing a capella... it was sweetness! She's an amazing pianist, but the really good news is that I got the coolest shirt! Why is it the coolest??? BECAUSE IT'S FITTED FOR A GIRL! You might not think that this is a big deal but it is! Most bands just have regular t-shirts.. but this is a shirt that I would wear on a regular basis! I have another band shirt that is fitted for a girl that Brazil bought me at Warped Tour a couple years ago and even though I didn't really know the band I still wore the shirt because it fit me like a shirt should! So props to Regina for the fitted v-neck shirt that I love.

Also Katie did my nails yesterday which is always fun! We watched a couple movies and they're super cute! I love them! We did mine and then after we had extra color stuff that she would've just thrown away so I asked if I could do her nails! So I did! I've never really attempted acrylic before, but it was really fun! and they look super good! I was super proud of myself. And that's my life.

Recently Discovered Pet Peeve

I don't think I have many pet peeves. Whenever I get asked that question I can never think of anything so I say something like "When people have bad grammer i.e. I used to could do that...no. It's-- I used to be able to do that. anyways...

The other day I was at work and I had a table of 8, they had the Scratch 'N Win cards (those things have caused me more trouble than they're worth!) They had a couple of them and I explained that they could only be used one per party... They didn't like that. So they asked if I could put them on separate tickets to get around that little rule and I told them that the manager was the only one that had the ability to discount the tickets and if she saw that I was using multiple cards per table I would get in trouble, so I couldn't do that-- well they weren't very happy. They asked for one of the other waiters that they knew that worked there and tried to go behind my back and get their tickets discounted and then said stuff like, "The day shift does it" and "They did it the last time I came in" blah blah blah.. it makes me ANGRY!

When people work at a food place or something like that a lot of the time friends will come in and the person will give them free drinks or discount their meal, etc... that's not my pet peeve--

My pet peeve is when people ask me to be dishonest. If I want to give you free drinks or get you discounts and I offer them to you-- fine. But if you come in and say "Hey Kaylen can you throw in some free drinks" and I say sorry I can't, but you keep persisting that I be on a dishonest person I am not ok with that!

So for the record.. don't come into Winger's and ask for free stuff because I'll tell you to take a hike!

Much Love~

Is there such a thing as a good pick up line?

Tonight I was working and because it was Halloween I thought that we'd be either SUPER busy or SUPER slow... we were slow. So about 9:00 I get this table of three guys; two are under 21 and one is looking over the drink menu.. He's barely 21..:

[Summerized Convo]

-"Do you have Bud on tap?" 
-"Ya, but I'm not 21, so I'll have to have someone come and take your drink order"
then he proceeds to say things like oh you're not 21? You look at least that old..How old are you then.. blah blah blah blah trying to create convo and seem all superior because he's older and can legally get drunk off his rocker, but I'm already getting annoyed because he's already starting to hit on me
-"Well I'll give you a few more minutes to decide."
------------
Come back a couple minutes later with the other two guys' drinks:
-"What would you suggest from the bar?"
-"... umm-I'm not 21 [duh!].. and I don't drink, so I really couldn't tell you"
-"Oh right.. well how big are your draft beers?"
-"24oz and 14oz"
-"Well how big is that?"
-"Um..."
-"Well can you just bring a mug so that I can see the size of the 24oz?"
etc etc etc... So after 20 minutes of debating, having seen the size of our mug, and inquiring about all the prices.. He decided to go with the 16 oz. Freak.


So the point of that whole speal was to emphasize the fact that this kid was a true winner! There were a couple other things that they said and did were just tacky... but we're going to fast forward to the end..

When I went to give them their check I also gave them a couple of our Scratch N' Win cards.. so when I came back from getting their change the one kid was like

-"So I won the first prize.. What does that mean?"
-"Oh that means that you get a free entree the next time you come in."
-"Is that all?? Because I was hoping that first prize was your phone number..."
-"Nope.. It isn't and I can't give my number out at work"
I turn and walk away and he calls after me
-"Wait come back.. What about after work?"
but they were paid and done-- so I left because I didn't have to go back...

I give him an A for originality because that's not a line you can find online, but I just want to know if ever in the history of the world has a pick up line worked for a guy.. some guys will use them as a joke and get away with it, but for real has anyone ever been dead serious about using a pick up line and got anything less than a dirty look... ha ha I dunno, but I was glad because the look on his face and the convo repeating in my head made me laugh randomly the rest of the night...